...influences can be pretty strong that way. I've felt 'em before. Some things-- when they overtake you, you just don't even know it, even if it's obvious to everyone else that something's wrong with you. It feels like it's your own idea, and your own desire.
[but, well.]
You're clearly still more or less yourself if it took them so long to figure you out, so it's not the same sorta thing we're used to, but. It's all that talk about the nanites, y'know?
but he's contemplative, clearly letting the gears turn in his head.]
Presume that I am unable to look at myself clearly, even though I know in my head that I chose to do what I did.
In which case, in a thought experiment, I already distrusted the nanites from early on. Even if it is not that, it is something that can make logic break down even in the most straightforward people. [he's talking about himself] That requires caution.
Caution or power, but... if something brute forced through your personality, I don't think it would've taken so long to figure out. We're literally sharing our thoughts and feelings, and it still took people hours, so that's... not encouraging.
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[and there is a bubble of frustration there]
But it is what I have. It's what I'll give to you, and trust you all to parse it.
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[oh my god will they try. gregor's not the ideas guy, though.]
...you're sure it felt like it was all you?
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[but, well.]
You're clearly still more or less yourself if it took them so long to figure you out, so it's not the same sorta thing we're used to, but. It's all that talk about the nanites, y'know?
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the word lingers in his head: Corrosion.
but he's contemplative, clearly letting the gears turn in his head.]
Presume that I am unable to look at myself clearly, even though I know in my head that I chose to do what I did.
In which case, in a thought experiment, I already distrusted the nanites from early on. Even if it is not that, it is something that can make logic break down even in the most straightforward people. [he's talking about himself] That requires caution.
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[scien is more obviously a villain and willing to account for his bullshit, at least]
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[gregor.]
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[but he's clearly not talking about himself]
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[it's been a week. not that he's suspicious of others as a default, but you know, this is just life.
weird as hell to go through this whole trial, man.]
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I truly can't emphasize how one of the most grating things all trial was to endure people thinking Dahut was a 15 year old baker.
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[he's not the smartest man here but damn.]
Don't know why anyone thinks a 15 year old would necessarily be helpless or something anyway, even if he was.
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But this is the group you'll be stuck with for the foreseeable future.
[a
twisted kind of amusement help]
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they're not so bad, though.]
Ah, they're just not what I'm used to. That's all.
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there is a resurgence of that odd feeling of gratitude.]
Well, do your best with them. I believe it safer for everyone if I die sooner than later, so I get to escape it all soon.
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[faint bafflement, there. they really just said nope we're not killing him.]
Everything else aside, if they keep having malfunctions and door issues, this isn't gonna work out.
['it'll get done either way.']
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[like come on now]
There should be a logical limit to mercy, especially when you don't have the competence to have a realistic prison.
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[something he is, unfortunately, pretty familiar with.]
So- what, then, doing it yourself? Asking them to deal with it?
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But then I don't see a point in prolonging it. You all also get attached too easily, so better not to open thee door to it.
[people were already feeding him like a stupid lil hamster so]
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[sounds fair enough, honestly. considering his everything, gregor kinda doubts he needs help dying or anything...]
Y'know some of them are gonna try to stop it if you tell them.
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