[ he frowns deeply to that. how can anybody even make rational decisions when they're that young? he doesn't need guesses, but he wonders if it's appropriate to ask.
he does anyway. ]
How many times did you try? [ how many times did you fight against your own body to try and regain some autonomy? ]
[that was all that it took, to know it was futile.]
I didn't... do it myself. [he didn't have the will for that.] But it would act on its own. React to my own stress, or strong emotions. It turned on a person, once.
[he recalls it clearly. her terror, with the blade of his arm at her throat. pulling against it with all his might while it refused to budge.]
Security-- I yelled at them to cut it, and they finally did. But after that...
...that's pretty horrifying. [ he has at least never had that kind of traumatic side effects. his are more a slow-dawning horror of everything in the world changing around him but he never will. ] How...so it's another one of those things where you really have to stay calm in order to control it. Or did it get better and more adjusted after that?
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[you know. normal things.
at that question, though, he huffs out a breath.]
...one of the things that's special about my arm's the regeneration.
[three guesses how he knows. the last two don't count.]
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he does anyway. ]
How many times did you try? [ how many times did you fight against your own body to try and regain some autonomy? ]
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[that was all that it took, to know it was futile.]
I didn't... do it myself. [he didn't have the will for that.] But it would act on its own. React to my own stress, or strong emotions. It turned on a person, once.
[he recalls it clearly. her terror, with the blade of his arm at her throat. pulling against it with all his might while it refused to budge.]
Security-- I yelled at them to cut it, and they finally did. But after that...
Just turned on them instead.
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...that's pretty horrifying. [ he has at least never had that kind of traumatic side effects. his are more a slow-dawning horror of everything in the world changing around him but he never will. ] How...so it's another one of those things where you really have to stay calm in order to control it. Or did it get better and more adjusted after that?