[ yeah. yeah, he's right there, too, constantly spending most of his waking hours worried something's going to happen to mizuki where he can't save her. not that he can do much like this, but in general. and even besides her, there are so many people he doesn't want to lose.
...what a mess. ]
...then we can think about something else. [ a light segue. and then he decides to be a shithead solely to try and ease the mood. ] Like who the second person you mentioned was that isn't Arthur or Rodya.
Um. Not negatively, I guess? [ let's not be surprised gregor shot his shot a few times. ] ...Io's not a bad person either, but I'm actually sort of impressed. And also not surprised it went better, considering.
Okay, maybe less impressed. [ a light joke. ] Obviously it's going to go better the second time if you just ignore it afterwards. But...you know. Whatever's comfortable.
Oh. Okay, so, not as bad as I thought. [ and still none of his business, shockingly, but it's just a thing he's thinking... ] Wait was that because of the weird affection thing we were all hit with?
[ friendship means he will not outright call him a bottom. ]
I'm not used to this whole thing, give me a bit. [ and also give him a bit because he's coughing up rust again, a little longer and a little more than previously. he has given up thinking he can wear shirts without them getting greasy this week.
but with that said, he's letting that swirl around in his head. ]
...thinking last week kind of helped a lot of people in similar ways. At least when it came to expressing stuff. And anyway it's Io. It wouldn't end bad either way it went.
You're anticipating the worst. [ pointing that out even while he's taking a breath. he hasn't really explained it to most people (and most people have been polite and not asked), but he does think at least maybe gregor might get it. ] ...this week's not great. It, uh, sort of feels like there's a bunch of rust lining everything and it builds up if I don't clear it out. But it's Wednesday, so it's half-over, right?
[ you ever have internal injuries because some fuck decided to perform genome therapy on you that you didn't need and all of your insides were affected? ]
his brow furrows deeper as shoma explains, though, because-- well. yeah, he's got an idea of why, after everything.]
... from the experiments and all, yeah? [god. fuck them.] I'd say at least you don't have to worry about anyone touching it, but-- feel like it's worse to be dealing with it like that.
Oh. Yeah, okay, that's acceptable. You could almost call it a good foundation since...I dunno. I was only affectionate with people I actually liked in the first place.
[ but yeah. yeah, there it is. ]
Yeah. [ ... ] The medicine they used to give me to "treat me" was actually doing aa ton of the genetic modifications, but it meant damages while everything in my body repaired and rearranged itself. I haven't felt like this in a long time, and now if there's a lot of movement it's like everything rubs the wrong way. [ this whole week so far has been shoma basically dealing with a lot of cramp-like flu-like grossness which has been an experience. but it helps that it's not real. he thinks. ]
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...what a mess. ]
...then we can think about something else. [ a light segue. and then he decides to be a shithead solely to try and ease the mood. ] Like who the second person you mentioned was that isn't Arthur or Rodya.
[ and we're back. ]
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[god, of course shoma didn't forget. damnit.
okay, fine, he knows the rest of it, so.]
...Io.
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Dude. [ DUDE? he's not sure if he's impressed or alarmed. ] ...you know, I did not see that one coming, actually.
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You are-?
[is it impressive.]
I feel like it did, anyway. Seemed like it was fine. But we didn't... talk about it.
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Okay, maybe less impressed. [ a light joke. ] Obviously it's going to go better the second time if you just ignore it afterwards. But...you know. Whatever's comfortable.
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[he's just gonna wait for io to bring it up. it's fine.]
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...it's not my business, but if it were me and I actually wasn't sure and wanted to be, I'd just ask. How long has it been?
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[thanks for not just telling him he's a bottom. god.]
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[ friendship means he will not outright call him a bottom. ]
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[NOT AS BAD AS HE THOUGHT.]
...a little bit. It, uh, helped.
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but with that said, he's letting that swirl around in his head. ]
...thinking last week kind of helped a lot of people in similar ways. At least when it came to expressing stuff. And anyway it's Io. It wouldn't end bad either way it went.
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[affection week putting the work in...
he's watching shoma a little more worriedly, this time.]
-you good there, bud?
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[ you ever have internal injuries because some fuck decided to perform genome therapy on you that you didn't need and all of your insides were affected? ]
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[not anticipating the worst, actually! somehow.
his brow furrows deeper as shoma explains, though, because-- well. yeah, he's got an idea of why, after everything.]
... from the experiments and all, yeah? [god. fuck them.] I'd say at least you don't have to worry about anyone touching it, but-- feel like it's worse to be dealing with it like that.
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[ but yeah. yeah, there it is. ]
Yeah. [ ... ] The medicine they used to give me to "treat me" was actually doing aa ton of the genetic modifications, but it meant damages while everything in my body repaired and rearranged itself. I haven't felt like this in a long time, and now if there's a lot of movement it's like everything rubs the wrong way. [ this whole week so far has been shoma basically dealing with a lot of cramp-like flu-like grossness which has been an experience. but it helps that it's not real. he thinks. ]