temenos [spacecoast]

[verminous]

it's time

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[verminous]

Well, you know. Spend a couple months with everyone telling you how awful home is and you start believing it a little.

[a lazy shrug.]

Can't exactly just back out of the contract we've got back there, though.

[inquired]

.... Do you have to return home?

[ thoughtfully ] I don't see how your contract would still be valid if your company believed you dead, is all.

[verminous]

That one's a little more difficult when we don't stay dead... it'd fall on Rodya for not getting my body back, probably.

[inquired]

And she intends to go back, I take it.

[verminous]

Last we talked, yeah.

...the company we work for, they're good at making offers you can't say no to.

[inquired]

I confess, I'm growing to hate these companies.

[ capitalism sucks ]

... Have you spoken with her about it? Leaving.

[verminous]

In the abstract, I guess? Hypothetically.

[...]

If she goes back and I don't, then I don't know how it'd go for her. I don't know if I could even avoid going back.

[inquired]

[ hmm. he's quiet for a moment, pondering gregor's predicament. ]

... Well. If you'd like my honest advice, then I'd say this - there is no better way to decide the direction of your heart than to talk about it with the person you think will be impacted by it, most. She may be able to provide you with the most insight on what choice to make, and you may just regret it either way, if you don't.

[ tell your rodya you fool ]

But also, I suppose it comes down to the choice of duty and freedom. The door to a cage may unlock, but you have to be the first one to take the steps out of it.

[verminous]

Don't worry, I'm... gonna talk to her. Now that everything about going back is a little more-- real and present.

[before, there was always one more thing to think about first. one more problem to solve.

none of that, now.]

...stepping out's the hardest part to think of, I think. I've never...

My own free will's never been much of a factor in my life.

[inquired]

[ it reminds him of throné, honestly. it's a discussion he's had with her, too - temenos is a free spirit, despite what it looks like, content to wander the world in search of his truths while he still can. he's never been collared, like the hound the sacred guard so badly wanted him to be.

so, he takes those words in thoughtfully, and then huffs, a quiet little laugh, though it's not mean. ]

And now you have a chance to grasp it. I don't blame you - it is a scary step to take, particularly with consequences. [ considering his situation with rodya ] You've been alive all this time, but I suppose now you must contend with if you want to live.

[verminous]

...I do, yeah. Whether I'd be able to, if I left, or if I'd just... forever be looking over one shoulder in case they could drag me back.

Could be a mistake, could... be an escape.

[inquired]

One you'll never know until you try.

[ either way. and one he'd likely be pondering forever if he didn't. ]